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Chicago → a winter away → looking back

I wanted to leave. Then I missed it.

The part of chasing a dream that doesn’t fit neatly into the announcement.

Alex outside a Chicago building, in a black vest and gray trousers.
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October 2024 post. I’d asked Draven to take these photos before leaving.

I thought about leaving my family, friends and my animals behind. I thought about how the fuck all of this would work.
October 23, 2024 · original caption

The caption was about leaving my family, friends and animals behind.

And then it became ordinary life.

In January, I wrote that it felt like I had just arrived.

It’s already been almost 3 months of chasing my dreams and it feels like I just arrived.
January 10, 2025 · original caption

The leaving goes both ways.

Lowkey leaving really sucked, gonna miss the homies but yk how it goes. Reunion will b soon, no doubt.
April 17, 2025 · original caption

In the April post, I was leaving Idaho and already missing the people I’d met.

One later detail I want to keep.

Quick backstory, one night I was at my desk at 2 AM probably pondering about the upcoming boarding season, so I applied to a few different resorts that night.
May 28, 2025 · retrospective caption

In May, I posted the backstory: sitting at my desk at 2 AM and applying to resorts.

The moments in this thread.